Paper Houses


We built our house

Out of cardboard boxes 

And playing cards and

No honesty aloud

But these secrets cut me 

Inside out and 


I am defined 

By the tears you've seen me cry

What are you waiting for

What are you waiting for


Cause we can forget it all

We can forget it all

As you fall away fall away

Fall away fall away

From me

From me

 

I held your hand 

To fill the spaces in between your

Rusty fingertips

Which crash like iceburgs 

In my skin and


I don't know why 

You won't look me in the eye

What are you waiting for

What are you waiting for


Cause we can forget it all
We can forget it all
As you fall away fall away
Fall away fall away
From me
From me

Yeah we can forget it all
We can forget it all
As you fall away fall away
Fall away fall away
From me
From me


So where does this leave us now

With scraps of paper in my hand

It's clear to see we're up to no good


So we can forget it all

We can forget it all

As you fall away fall away

Fall away fall away

From me

From me


Yeah we can forget it all

We can forget it all 

As you fall away fall away

Fall away fall away

​From me


Akaina Ghosh is a folk inspired singer-songwriter.

Their music explores bare, acoustic tones and deeply human narratives.

They hope to give release to the queer, the broken-hearted, and the solipsistic.

A Fatal Touch


You are the opposite of what I look for

You are exactly what I think I'd be good for

And we are something to see

A new type of reality

Let's go and run

Till we're long gone


And I'll sail away

Cause the people begged me not to stay

If you take my hand

I will lead you to the promised land

And I don't have much 

Except for a fatal touch of love


You are scared of change but afraid of standing still

You are the type of strange this hole in my heart could fill

And we are cryptic and queer

Maybe we should get out of here

Let's go and run 

Till we're long gone


And I'll sail away
Cause the people begged me not to stay
If you take my hand
I will lead you to the promised land
And I don't have much 
Except for a fatal touch of love


And we'll sail away
Cause they won't miss us anyway
If you take my hand
I will lead you to the promised land
And we won't have much 
Except for a fatal touch of love


November


Close my eyes and count from one to ten

Before I've finished you'll be gone again

Behind your eyes I see a splash of light

Please let it breed and bring me back to life


If you'd stay for a minute

I'd be gone inside your arms

If I prayed to be in it

Would you save me from the dark

And these clouds that hang above me

You could wash the rain away 

If you'd stay


Dreams are toys but this one has me squared

This vacancy has left me unprepared

Your words are sweetly killing me it seems

Is this the kind of love that stays in dreams


If you'd stay for a minute
I'd be gone inside your arms
If I prayed to be in it
Would you save me from the dark
And these clouds that hang above me
You could wash the rain away 
If you'd stay


If you'd stay for a minute
I'd be gone inside your arms
If I prayed to be in it
Would you save me from the dark
And these clouds that hang above me
You could wash the rain away 
If you'd stay

My Tender Heart


From where we stand

It's a long way down

Can't we go home

On a different road somehow

My feet are tired

And my eyes are swollen shut

My tender heart 

Can't keep this up


And I can't carry you

But I can't move on

No I can't carry you 

But I can't move on


Please take my hand

And make me believe

It's not the end

As dark as it may seem

I need a friend

As selfish as that may be

I'm fading slowly


And I can't carry you

But I can't move on

No I' can't carry you

But I can't move on


No I can't

No I can't


But I can't move on

Still Breathing


Excuse me miss but

Have we been here before

I could say I've seen that sweater dress once more

We were walking 

And talking of God

And you'd say "It's so beautiful"

And I'd just nod

Right by the tree there

We buried a match


Promised one day we'd return

And light it up

To prove that we

Are still breathing


You showed me your scars

And I showed you mine

We covered them with daffodils and wine

You kissed me in secret

Where no one could see


Promised one day we'd return

And kiss again

To prove that we

Are still breathing


Excuse me miss but

I thought you were her

When I saw that purple sweater I was sure

If you see here

Please tell her I came

To see if she'd return

If it's not too late 

To prove that we

Are still breathing

Winter


Will I survive
If I am lost
Dawn is breaking
And I can’t stop shaking
Winter has taken its cost

The river didn’t flow so fast before
I used to think that I could make it to the shore
But nowadays it seems so far away
Maybe I’d best be giving up

I wrote a letter to myself
Asking to find someone to come and help
But the postmaster never came
The words all went to waste
Maybe I’d best be giving up

Will I survive
If I am lost
Dawn is breaking
And I can’t stop shaking
Winter has taken its cost

I thought I had a plan
Simple enough for God to understand
But somewhere along the way
The pages blew away
May I’d best be giving up

Will I survive
If I am lost
Dawn is breaking
And I can’t stop shaking
Winter has taken its cost

Where did all the people go
The ones I fell in love with so long ago
I didn’t get to say goodbye
I’d like another try
Maybe I’d best be giving up


Better Than This


If I pretended not to know about the things you did to her 

Would things be better

If I pretended not to think about the doubts inside your kiss 

Would things be better

I might not know much but I think I know

I could do better

Better Than this


Go back to when we were something

Something to be talked about

On top of the world

It may have been an inch or two

Out of reality

But we were on top of the world


I didn't know much at the time

But you didn't know much either


If I pretended not to know about the things you did to her 
Would things be better
If I pretended not to think about the doubts inside your kiss 
Would things be better
I might not know much but I think I know
I could do better
Better Than this


Tell me what you expected from

This old little dance and song

I'm ready for that

Maybe if I was the only one

This would be a different song

I'm ready for that


I didn't know much at the time
But you didn't know much either

If I pretended not to know about the things you did to her 
Would things be better
If I pretended not to think about the doubts inside your kiss 
Would things be better
I might not know much but I think I know
I could do better
Better Than this


Oh 

One more kiss

Oh

One more kiss


I didn't know much at the time

But you didn't know much either


The Long Way Back


Night comes here again

But we're not friends

No we're not

Anything to anyone anymore

And I won't call your name

Not with my tongue

What have we done

We can't be anything to anyone


And I won't think about you

Won't dream about you

Won't scream about you


And I take the long way back

And I take the long way back home

Cause I don't want to be alone

No I don't want to be alone


Touch me if you can

Unholy hands

Grip tighter

I'm terrified of everyone and anyone

And I don't know your name

Or where you're from

What have I done

I don't know anyone


And I won't think about you
Won't dream about you
Won't scream about you

And I take the long way back
And I take the long way back home
Cause I don't want to be alone
No I don't want to be alone


Peel away my skin

And breathe me in

You know me now

Control me in

My lonely insides

Fill me up til I am whole


And I take the long way back
And I take the long way back home
Cause I don't want to be alone
No I don't want to be alone

And I take the long way back

And I take the long way back

And I take the long way back

And I take the long way back


A Creation Story


There was a man named God

Who had too much time

So he created a people

Born to die

Then he went to sleep for awhile

He went to sleep


Then we started wars

We didn't know how to fight

And we married our brothers 

And killed our wives

And God said "What have I done?"

So he played spin the bottle with his gun


Then we made pills and drills and oil spills

And washed away the fear with beer

And laughed all day to take the

Pain away

And a little girl with golden curls

Cried and cried

Screaming what is this all for?


Cause people die 

And children cry

But we just close our eyes

Saying one day we'll figure it out

What being alive is about


The AZT The ecstacy 

Didn't work

But pretend not to notice

Cause we're still so devoted

And we act surprised by the suicides

Then sharpen our knives at home

We sharped our knives at home


But can't we be more than what we're created for

Can't you be something more than what you're created for

I need to be something more

There needs to be something more

Dear You


If I wrote you a song would you like me

I will try not to sing it out of key

But it seems you don't notice me 

The way I notice you

And that's alright


But that night when you almost touched

My hand I thought I'd die

So I thought that I should say something to you

Because maybe just maybe

Things could turn out right

In the end


Because things could be alright in the end


There's a part of me that likes a part of you

And I'm pretty sure that part of you

Is falling for me too

But sometimes when you look at me

I can't really tell what you think


So just tell me just tell me

How you really feel

And I'll try not to cry when you leave

Because even if everything I've done

Has been in vain

I'm still the same


If it's all been in vain I'm still the same


I had a dream that you and I were at the end of days

We shared a beer and went our separate ways

But before you left you kissed my cheek and said

It's been great


You kissed my cheek and said

It's been great

​​Akaina Ghosh

The Wolf

Blink twice if you’re alright
I’m sorry love I was never quite
So good at reading faces
And on and on and on and on and on
We go

And I can’t help but wonder
Are you thinking of her
When you say my name?
And when your eyes are closed
Do you see her face?

Are you drunk again
Your whiskey lips are swollen
And I know that
Soon you’re going back to her
And I’ll be lying here icing burns

And I can’t help but wonder
Are you thinking of her
When you say my name?
And when your eyes are closed
Do you see her face?

It’s a foolish girl who falls for the wolf
In the end
And when all the blood’s been dried
Is there any proof I survived

And I can’t help but wonder

40 Ft. Tall


When we met I was in love

With someone who'd forget me in the morning

Three weeks later I fell in love

With a blue-eyed beauty full of words of warning


True love never lasts

Our end is coming fast

We're different in too many ways

We'll go our separate paths

And cry as we laugh

About the times we made love for days


But I say

We bite our nails the same way

We're not so different at all

And when you kiss me like that

I swear I'm 40 Ft. Tall

You say love ends in misery

Sorry but I have to disagree

So darling won't you stay with me

Until our bones freeze


When you sleep you hold my hand

Like otters do so they don't lose each other

When you're awake I can hardly stand

Cause when you laugh my legs turn to butter


But you like beer and I like wine

We argue nearly half the time

We're different in too many ways

One day we're doing fine

Walking a steady line

Then something tears us far apart for days


But I say
We bite our nails the same way
We're not so different at all
And when you kiss me like that
I swear I'm 40 Ft. Tall
You say love ends in misery
Sorry but I have to disagree
So darling won't you stay with me
Until our bones freeze


We'll never make it through

Just look at me and look at you 

We're different in too many ways

But fuck it I love you

And I know deep down you love me too

So let's get back to making love for days


Cause I say
We bite our nails the same way
We're not so different at all
And when you kiss me like that
I swear I'm 40 Ft. Tall
You say love ends in misery
Sorry but I have to disagree
So darling won't you stay with me
Until our bones freeze


Take Me Away


I'm lost

Out in the dark

Take me away

Take me away

I'm scared

Of falling apart

Take me away

Take me away


The birds have stopped singing today

They ran out of songs so they're moving away

I begged and I plead I said oh 

Just please just stay

They just smiled and waved

Said "it'll be okay"


I'm lost
Out in the dark
Take me away
Take me away
I'm scared
Of falling apart
Take me away
Take me away


Is it getting colder somehow

Am I getting older I can't figure it out

Everything's changing and I want out

Nobody told me life's so full of doubt


I'm lost
Out in the dark
Take me away
Take me away
I'm scared
Of falling apart
Take me away
Take me away


Something's gone wrong here

And maybe it's me

My lungs have closed 

It's getting so hard to breathe

Is anyone out there 

Who can hear me

Take me with you

Please


I'm lost
Out in the dark
Take me away
Take me away
I'm scared
Of falling apart
Take me away
Take me away


In Memory of a Lost Loved One


She just looked asleep

Dreaming pretty dreams 

And those rosy cheeks 

Aren't meant to be

Cold and bittersweet

Can she hear me?

Writing a song and crying too long

Won't she wake up and see

I can't do this alone

She needs to come home


And I swear to God 

I saw her breathing

And I swear to God

She's not ready to leave

Oh please don't take her from me


Yesterday she was fine

Singing a song and drinking too long

Yesterday she was mine

To cuddle to hold to keep growing old

Too young to be out of time

She's got so much to see 

So many things to be

Where's the reason or rhyme?

Why put her to bed why not take me instead?


And I swear to God

I saw her breathing

And I swear to God

She's not ready to leave

Oh please don't take her from me


And I swear to God

I saw her breathing

And I swear to God

She's not ready to leave

Oh please don't take her from me